Help me let go... of the chaos around me, devil that hounds me, I need you to tell me... try and be still. (Ave Maria by Pink)
I LOVE this song, especially for that line. For those of you who are really close me to you know I've got a few demons. Doesn't everyone? Well, lately I'm trying to battle the demon that is weight loss and coping with stress by NOT eating everything in site. I've got about 40 pounds to lose, which I know that some of you will say is way too much, but you haven't seen me in a long time.
This extra weight that I am carrying around is dragging me down not only physically but emotionally, mentally, etc. Most of the time I've been content to just say tomorrow I'll start, but my tomorrows are going to be running out. I HATE taking pictures with my kids and I know that I'm going to look back and wonder what was I thinking?
No idea who will read this or if I'll even share it with anyone. For now, I think I'll keep it to myself. When I'm ready to ask for the help that I know I will need to succeed, I'll let everyone know.
